Jesus Wants Everything!

I am so quick to say it yes Lord take it all..yet, my hands remain clenched with desires I have yet to give up. Just the other day my life seemed to revolve around the fact that I hated what I was wearing and wanted to go shopping. Seems like a common thought for a woman, maybe it is but I’m not okay with settling for that. I was ready to open up a credit account to get what I wanted. I didn’t have the money for new jeans and I wanted them and I wanted them now!! “If only I would just go buy a few pairs at AE I might feel a tad bit more confident than I do right now. The fact is that’s not truth. Okay…maybe I would of felt a tad better but how long would that last?…Not long enough. Even after taking a Dave Ramsey course my state of mind cried out for a credit card to “satisfy and sustain me”. What a load of crap. So I seem to be stuck in the fashion cycle. Always comparing myself to other people and what they are wearing. FYI I didn’t go buy the jeans (I called my mom to talk me out of it). However my heart still longed for material goods. As I was walking through the college parking lot a thought came across to me. Who even cares what I wear? Is it seriously that serious? And if any one kept tally points of my outfits, I would have to conclude that the person must lead a sad and boring life. In a weird twisted way I worshiped the thought of those jeans. That puts a knot in my stomach. Especially when I cry out and tell everyone “Give it all to Jesus!”. By not buying new jeans I slayed a bit of that jean idol I had in my heart. Its not the first time and I am sure it wont be the last. I Praise Jesus for being soo patient with me. I thought the Israelites were insane for worshiping a golden calf when Moses was on the Mountain meeting with God, yet, I am not too far from that wandering heart. I am so thankful for the Holy Spirits conviction and God’s Grace! How beautiful He is!