To everything turn, turn

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven" Ecclesiastes 3:1

I have been reflecting a lot...but actually I have been reflecting on death. No, I am not suicidal. It's just...death IS the destiny of all. One day, we all will die. I must sound really depressing right now. There was a 12 year old boy in Colorado who killed his parents...a 17 year old girl in Johnstown killed in a car accident. All I can think about is how they all thought they would live another day. I take life for granted. I use the days God has given me for my own glory. That's not okay... Life is fleeting. Colossians 3 talks about setting our hearts on things above and not on earthly things. When Jesus is your Savior and Lord, death looses its sting, but I guess for me I am still left in fear of it. There truly is a season to everything. Pray for me, to let the Spirit work in me in a way words cannot explain. I have been trying to do things on my own strength without Him, its a lonley scary place when you cannot hear the Spirit of Jesus. Its not that He's not there...its just that my mind has been set on earthly things that drown Him out. There was a time Passion filled my soul for Jesus, and now numbness has taken that place. But the Spirit of God is living and active, and able to penetrate my heart. Riding me of the things that keep me from coming to Him. I just can't do it in my own strength. So what does all of this have to do with death? I don't know, all I know is that more I hear about people passing the more my heart breaks for something more...He is that something more. Not a crutch to lean on in time of need, but one who calls us to die to self. Maybe thats just it, I am so afraid to die of self and live in Him, and yet thats the only way to truly live. I don't have it all figured out, in fact I sometimes I crave to go back to the basics.. to sit at the cross without my thoughts going elsewhere. To realize just how pointless this life is aside from Christ. There is NO hope outside of Him. Let that sink into your heart, and mine.

"Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself: it must remain in the Vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing" - John 15:4-5